Pressure

I am a complete blog-a-holic.  First thing I do in the mornings is check up on all my bloggie friends lives.  It is amazing how much you can come to "know" a person this way.  I would say that I have been a blog-a-holic for about two years now. Give or take a few months.  This has created some ups and downs in my life.

Ups:
So much information out there!
Tons of great recipes
Friendships
Motivation
The list really could go on and on...

Downs:
Probably too much time spent on the computer
Pressure to be like the others

I know the second "down" may seem a little stupid, but bare with me! I read mostly "foodie" and "fitness" blogs.  While I totally admire them for what they are doing, it also makes me put a TON of pressure on myself to be like them.  The really bad part comes when I fail at being just like them.  (Half-Marathon anyone?)! I want to be healthy and fit just like them and when I try, I usually wind up injuring myself or just taking on too much at one time. Taking on too much puts so much pressure on me.  It also makes me give up reeeeally quick. When this happens, I feel like a total failure.

I was sitting there at work today thinking about the pressures that can come from blogging and reading blogs.  You know what? I am done with making so many plans! I also have to realize that no matter what, I will never be that super, incredibly fit soccer player anymore.  (Man, I miss those abs!) Things change... our bodies change as we get older and I need to just learn to love what I have.

Now, this doesn't mean that I can just stop working out and start eating junk food.  No way.  What I really want to accomplish here is learning to do active stuff that I love.  If it's just a walk one day, so be it.  If I feel like running, I will.  If I decide to swim, I will put on a bathing suit and do it.  I am tired of putting so much pressure on myself and failing all the time.  That is such a blow to my self esteem.

Here's to spontaneity and learning to enjoy being healthy again!

Just curious...does this happen to anyone else? What does everyone else like to do for exercise? Please comment!